February 9, 2008

It was a nice Saturday

Weather wise it was crummy, but otherwise I had a nice day. The wind was horrible and it was so cold. Kept me up most of the night cause the windows were rattling and the deck furniture was blowing around a bit.

This morning I was feeling a little queasy but not too bad. I was lying on the couch and I think the cat hair made me start coughing... I think I've developed more sensitive allergies since I became pregnant... and I cannot cough hard enough to accomplish what is meant to be accomplished by coughing. So for this reason I have to cough a lot more and it never really does the job. Then I end up coughing harder and I end up making myself gag really bad. My gag reflex is so sensitive right now. So I ran to the kitchen to have a bite of bread which usually keeps me from puking. It didn't work this time however and so I got sick in the kitchen sink, which was thankfully empty since I've been keeping up with the dishes. Marah was very worried about me and did her best to comfort me. I felt really yucky after that and my throat burned. Sigh... I hate being pregnant. I forgot just how much I hate it.

We went to the new Denny's for brunch. I forgot how much I don't care for Denny's. It was horrible, I felt bad for Jenna. She ordered a kids pizza and it looked so cheap and the cheese looked very gluey. She didn't eat it. She ate the grapes and some of Marah's fries. So we won't be going there again anytime soon, if ever. Perkins is so much better, no comparison whatsoever.

We went to Target for some groceries. We bought stuff to make banana splits and I forgot to get whipped cream. I also forgot that banana splits have strawberry sauce and pineapple sauce so when Eric asked why I was buying caramel I just gave him "what do you mean why?" look. Then he reminded me what comes on banana splits and I laughed. Oh well. I also bought some vanilla ice cream and strawberries to make strawberry shakes. The strawberries smelled sooooo good! How is that possible? I guess with the warm winter some states are having the crops are still good. I have been really enjoying oranges too and I really don't normally like oranges. They have to be perfect, and the ones I've been getting at Target have been just that!

Oh I also got a cute little boy onesie at Target. It was only $3.00 so I decided to get it maybe for good luck? lol It's cute though. It says 50% Mommy + 50% Daddy= 100% cute. So I hung it on the wall above our computer. If this is a girl then I can look at it everyday with hatred and regret... j/k :) I'm happy either way, but I'd be lying if I said I wouldn't be more happy if it were a boy. I know that no matter what though, the little sprout will bring more joy and stress just like the other two!

When we got home I took a nap with Marah. It felt good to sleep, as usual. I didn't wake up too groggy which was good. Then I gave Marah a bath and gave the kids banana splits.

Jenna took her shower while I made taco salad for supper. I made it with doritos and it was really good. I had been craving that all day. So the kids are clean, which is always an accomplishment. Jenna really is at the point where she needs to wash her hair every other day. It has been stinky lately. I've been too busy to tend to that, but I will change that. Same with Marah, though I hate giving her a bath too often as her skin is so sensitive and she just starts itching like crazy. I need to find a good bath wash for eczema. Some say they are good but then they just make her break out.

Anyway, I really should go. Wanted to leave you with this video first though :)

February 7, 2008

Getting back to the important things

Not that working isn't important, because it is. We need money and we also need the health/dental benefits that come with employment. However, I have never felt that my place is outside the home. My heart is in my family and being there for the important things. So when Eric found his recent job I made the decision to leave my job at Amazon.com.

Things will be tight, we will need to make sacrifices and adjustments to our current standard of living, but I know that this is the right choice. I can't say how much it means to me to be able to stay home. I know that Eric hates to work, like most people, and I appreciate it so very much.

I only want to make aims to be a wonderful mom and wife. I know that this is the only way that Eric, too, can appreciate what I do. So my plans are to take back control of this mess and to place my primary focus on my children and my husband. This is what God has called me to do, and I intend to work at it with all my heart.

I have been working hard to get our apartment cleaned up. It had gotten so out of control and nothing was getting done. I have been too tired to do anything after work, just completely exhausted. I have the main living areas all picked up and cleaned with the exception of some minor organizing/junking that I need to take care of. So tomorrow I hope to get the kids room and the master bathroom cleaned up and maybe start a bit on the spare room which is basically a catch all junk room and has been since we first moved in.

I want to put together some kind of loose schedule for the day so that I can make sure to give Marah the attention she needs and get all my errands and housework done too. I want to try to get organized, but I also don't want to try to do too much at once because then I'll get overwhelmed.

I have a vision exam tomorrow and hopefully some new frames are in my immediate future! I love the idea of getting new glasses but it also makes me nervous because once you get them, you're stuck with them for awhile and I have to wear them all the time, so it's a pretty important decision! Eric and the girls all have their exams next Saturday which is making me anxious. It will be the first eye exam for the girls and I hope they do well. Funny cause part of me hopes that Jenna needs glasses (how bad is that?! LOL) because she looks so cute in them, but of course a bigger part of me wants nothing to do with that. I can't imagine having to keep up with them... yikes. I can't even keep up with my own. Although Jenna is so OCD about stuff like that she'd probably never forget them.

Oh I almost forgot, I'm having another baby! lol... like how I just throw that in there at the last minute? So far I've been basically miserable, nauseous all the time, so tired, so sore, and feeling kinda dizzy a lot of the time too. I hope this only lasts thru the first trimester because with Marah I felt sick through the entire pregnancy and it was so awful. Anyway, I'm very excited and Jenna is very excited too, she keeps talking about it, it's pretty cute. She has mentioned that she wants it to be a girl because she wants another sister and it would be fun to have two sisters. I asked her, what if it's a boy? A brother would be nice right? And she said "Oh, alright, I guess it could be a brother." :)

Lastly but not leastly, I actually scrapped today! Okay, so three of these are actually premade pages I just dropped my photo into, but the one with Marah's mouth is all me. I'm so proud of myself for sitting down and making myself do this today.

Jenna's soccer friends last summer

Jenna just after turning 6

Marah with her Auntie Angie

So I think this kid has the biggest mouth I've ever seen on such a tiny head!